Yeah, it's a great question Randy. For me, I've always been wired on the slightly more aggressive side. Parents were fighters, not passive. Maybe I picked it up from them? I think there's a fine line between conscious and unconscious. When some of us, like me, cross that line into going dull, unconscious, we walk right into whatever shadow we have. When I get tired, hungry, or after a drink of alcohol, losing present moment awareness can happen. For me, the irritation I felt that night is related to the still lingering childhood wound of an overbearing father. I've done tons of work and most of the time, it doesn't affect me. On the very rare occassion, like the instance I wrote about, I slipped into it. I caught myself quickly, within minutes, and recovered. That wasn't the case years ago. So, there's been growth and for that I'm happy. The challenge is to maintain poise no matter comes at me. I'm close. But still work to do.