You’re right, sometimes we do need an instruction guide. There is a time and place for all things right? There were times in my life when I had to do what you described for your work. Perhaps you find your quiet time while you ride or when you get home later. I sense you know what you need to do to find your peace at this time in your life. I’m not in the middle of the rat race anymore. I can look at it standing outside of it. I can see more clearly the need for boundaries and staying close to heart. Best wishes on your journey. Keep going.